My Immortal, My Pain

I've been trying to find the right words. The right words to how I've felt the past two and a half months. Finally, I found them. They've been right in front of me. One of my favorite bands, one of my favorite songs was just there. I finally found them. Going through old playlists... I finally found the words. Music is what I have. It's what I use. Every word in this song is a word I've placed. I use every one of them. They're the perfect match. Maybe by doing this, it will help me further in my journey back to life. Thanks to an amazing friend who's been there so much lately. This is helping me even more, Chase.


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I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me


I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

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