Never Again Will I Trust You. Maybe.

Trust. What is trust? The dictionary defines trust as "reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence." Reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or a thing and even... Confidence? Wow, I never would have guessed. Trust, it's such a fickle thing. Kind of like love. Generally, the two go hand in hand. If you love someone, you should be able to trust them right? With every little secret, every little detail.. Everything. right? Or maybe not. Maybe trust is something meant to be broken. But the dictionary says your reliance on a person. The dictionary even says to believe or to have confidence in someone. Does that just not matter anymore? Can people really just break that trust? Can you really tell someone else a secret that your friend just told you? Could you really do that to someone? Could you really hurt a person that bad? Even over the simplest thing.. It's just.. Trust. It doesn't matter. It's not necessarily what was said but that it was said. Or maybe it's not even about talking or saying things. Maybe it's trust that they won't do something. Being in a relationship I'm pretty sure that everyone doesn't want to get cheated on. So, they trust that person not to do something like that. Maybe they trust them to make the right decisions in general. Maybe your parents trust you not to make dumb decisions. Who knows?

Why do we betray someone's trust? Do we really not care about that person that much? Do we really want to hurt them? Yes, some things may not tick you off but.. What happens when they are a repeat offender to betraying your trust?.. What happens when it's something big? Now, I'm not saying that you should just go off and never trust someone who has betrayed you once of a little thing but.. Honest to God.. Why would you betray someone?

Trust. What do you define it as? I hate being betrayed. I hate it. It hurts. I have a trust issue and the people that I do trust, are great people. I have been hurt and I have hurt people. I hope that I never get hurt again and I hope that I never get hurt again.

Trust. Do it.

I Love You in Another World

It's kind of amazing how many different ways and languages there are to say "I love you". There's even special ways to say it. Female to male, male to female, and even ways to say it to your pets. There are certain ways to say it to your friends and even to your teachers. Even within the same language, it could be used differently in another country that speaks the same language. But do you always say it in our language and actually mean it? Or do we say it in some other language because well.. We are actually afraid to say it so the listener feels good about themselves? Is that reason why we say "I love you"? Do we just want to please them? Or do we actually mean it? Love is so.. Intense.. Or is it? Love is so.. Capturing.. Or is it? What is love? Webster would define it as "a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person." But would you consider it as such? Is it just a word we toss around? Has it lost it's meaning to lust and sex? Is there still hope out there for those of us who actually seek love?

I don't understand people who just settle for someone. Why wouldn't you want to strive for the person that you feel so passionately about? Is it because you come from two different worlds; you're an outcast and they're the most popular person? Are they younger than you and you are just worried that people will make fun of you? Are they older than you and you just aren't comfortable with being with someone older? Are you really worried about what other people think? Are you? Do you care that your friends think that the one you have fallen for is hideous? Or do you care that they are everything you could ask for? Do you honestly like them or are you just leading them on?

Why would you lead someone on? It hurts. There is no love in that.

J'capote su' toe' (Canadian French-basically, I'm head over heels for you)
Ik ben verliefd op je (Dutch- I am in love with you)
Se latrevo (Greek-I adore you)
Aloha wau ia 'oe nui loa (Hawaiian- I love you very much)
Kocham cie (Polish- I love you)
Ya tyebya lyublyu (Russian-I love you)
T'estim molt (Catalan- I love you very much)
Ti amo, Ti voglio bene (Between friends), Ti voglio (strong sexual reference)-Italian- I love you
Ego Amo te (Latin- I love you--Ego for emphasis)
I love you (English-generally meaning.. I love you, you dumbass. Get it through your head)

The word "love" is thrown around. It is played around with and.. Wherever you go, it means just about the same thing. While it's great to hear it in another language, saying it in person, with your language.. Beats out all else. I love you, simply that.

Amazing

So, it's been a while and I just wanted to post a few things on here that are.. Absolutely amazing. They were said through a guy who can be a true gentleman and there are some things that I said. Here is goes.

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"You may think you are a bad person, but to me you are a friend, and you are perfect just the way you are.."

"I don't.. That's why you're my best friend."

"Don't. You don't know how amazing you are."

"I'm sorry. I can't show you how important you are in life but.. I don't know what I would do without you.."

"..just because we aren't dating, doesn't mean I don't love you.."

"..you are strong enough.. let an angel guard you.."

"Ti amo."



The words that he says are.. Lifting and he.. Makes my day so much brighter. I can only thank him. I can only hope to become closer to him.. He makes me feel amazing. <3> Te amo. Simplemente eso.

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