Lyrics To Live By

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love

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You know, I don't think enough people stop and listen to the lyrics. See, for me, that's the FIRST thing I listen to, most of the time. I usually fall in love with a song for its lyrics. I look at a song's title and I google its lyrics. I read them and if I like them, I youtube it and listen to it. I eventually made my decision once the lyrics and music are put together. This song, kind of inspired me. Maybe it's my medicine wearing down but really truly, I wish more people would listen to a song like this. I mean actually listen. The lyrics are so powerful and it's quite amazing. If today was your last day.. How would you spend it?

Never Again Will I Trust You. Maybe.

Trust. What is trust? The dictionary defines trust as "reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence." Reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or a thing and even... Confidence? Wow, I never would have guessed. Trust, it's such a fickle thing. Kind of like love. Generally, the two go hand in hand. If you love someone, you should be able to trust them right? With every little secret, every little detail.. Everything. right? Or maybe not. Maybe trust is something meant to be broken. But the dictionary says your reliance on a person. The dictionary even says to believe or to have confidence in someone. Does that just not matter anymore? Can people really just break that trust? Can you really tell someone else a secret that your friend just told you? Could you really do that to someone? Could you really hurt a person that bad? Even over the simplest thing.. It's just.. Trust. It doesn't matter. It's not necessarily what was said but that it was said. Or maybe it's not even about talking or saying things. Maybe it's trust that they won't do something. Being in a relationship I'm pretty sure that everyone doesn't want to get cheated on. So, they trust that person not to do something like that. Maybe they trust them to make the right decisions in general. Maybe your parents trust you not to make dumb decisions. Who knows?

Why do we betray someone's trust? Do we really not care about that person that much? Do we really want to hurt them? Yes, some things may not tick you off but.. What happens when they are a repeat offender to betraying your trust?.. What happens when it's something big? Now, I'm not saying that you should just go off and never trust someone who has betrayed you once of a little thing but.. Honest to God.. Why would you betray someone?

Trust. What do you define it as? I hate being betrayed. I hate it. It hurts. I have a trust issue and the people that I do trust, are great people. I have been hurt and I have hurt people. I hope that I never get hurt again and I hope that I never get hurt again.

Trust. Do it.

I Love You in Another World

It's kind of amazing how many different ways and languages there are to say "I love you". There's even special ways to say it. Female to male, male to female, and even ways to say it to your pets. There are certain ways to say it to your friends and even to your teachers. Even within the same language, it could be used differently in another country that speaks the same language. But do you always say it in our language and actually mean it? Or do we say it in some other language because well.. We are actually afraid to say it so the listener feels good about themselves? Is that reason why we say "I love you"? Do we just want to please them? Or do we actually mean it? Love is so.. Intense.. Or is it? Love is so.. Capturing.. Or is it? What is love? Webster would define it as "a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person." But would you consider it as such? Is it just a word we toss around? Has it lost it's meaning to lust and sex? Is there still hope out there for those of us who actually seek love?

I don't understand people who just settle for someone. Why wouldn't you want to strive for the person that you feel so passionately about? Is it because you come from two different worlds; you're an outcast and they're the most popular person? Are they younger than you and you are just worried that people will make fun of you? Are they older than you and you just aren't comfortable with being with someone older? Are you really worried about what other people think? Are you? Do you care that your friends think that the one you have fallen for is hideous? Or do you care that they are everything you could ask for? Do you honestly like them or are you just leading them on?

Why would you lead someone on? It hurts. There is no love in that.

J'capote su' toe' (Canadian French-basically, I'm head over heels for you)
Ik ben verliefd op je (Dutch- I am in love with you)
Se latrevo (Greek-I adore you)
Aloha wau ia 'oe nui loa (Hawaiian- I love you very much)
Kocham cie (Polish- I love you)
Ya tyebya lyublyu (Russian-I love you)
T'estim molt (Catalan- I love you very much)
Ti amo, Ti voglio bene (Between friends), Ti voglio (strong sexual reference)-Italian- I love you
Ego Amo te (Latin- I love you--Ego for emphasis)
I love you (English-generally meaning.. I love you, you dumbass. Get it through your head)

The word "love" is thrown around. It is played around with and.. Wherever you go, it means just about the same thing. While it's great to hear it in another language, saying it in person, with your language.. Beats out all else. I love you, simply that.

Amazing

So, it's been a while and I just wanted to post a few things on here that are.. Absolutely amazing. They were said through a guy who can be a true gentleman and there are some things that I said. Here is goes.

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"You may think you are a bad person, but to me you are a friend, and you are perfect just the way you are.."

"I don't.. That's why you're my best friend."

"Don't. You don't know how amazing you are."

"I'm sorry. I can't show you how important you are in life but.. I don't know what I would do without you.."

"..just because we aren't dating, doesn't mean I don't love you.."

"..you are strong enough.. let an angel guard you.."

"Ti amo."



The words that he says are.. Lifting and he.. Makes my day so much brighter. I can only thank him. I can only hope to become closer to him.. He makes me feel amazing. <3> Te amo. Simplemente eso.

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Lie

I am jealous. I am jealous. I hate me. I hate me so much. UGH. What is wrong with me? Why is everything coming down like rain? What the heck? I'm sick of this. It hurts. Maybe I should just tell my dad that I really want him to get a job out in Oregon. I can go out there for my senior year and stay out there for college. Maybe that's suppose to happen. Ughh.. Who knows? What am I supposed to do anymore?

The one thing I love most is being taken away from me piece by piece.. Music has been my escape. Music has been my life. Music is.. was.. is.. everything. It's the thing that I've always had.. But.. It's not there anymore.. It's been taken away.. What do you do when something you love has been snatched? There's nothing you can do. It's gone for now, babe. To the teacher who made that certain.. I hope you realize that you didn't help make my dream come true.. You helped take it away.

UGH. Boys. Boys. Boys. Boys. You've got me lost. As usual. What do you do when things just.. Don't fall into place like they should? Or maybe.. Shouldn't. You lose yourself in something you think is great. What happens when.. He tells you he likes someone else.. ? Someone that.. Came into his life.. After you?.. How are you suppose to act? What are you suppose to say? What are you suppose to do with yourself? You look in the mirror and yell and scream.. You plead and cry why.. You tell yourself you're hideous and you want to know what's wrong with you.. You take the blade and you cut yourself hoping to relieve the pain.. Or for someone to notice.. You call yourself names that nobody will hear.. You pray to God "what's wrong with me and why did you make me this way?". You look at yourself and you think.. After what I did.. For him.. You look at yourself and want to cut all your hair off.. You want to rip off that Hollister polo and just scream. You are disgusted with yourself.. And it's just because he told you he liked someone else.. And you told him you moved on. But are you jealous or are you confused? Who knows because you don't.

To that boy...

I lied.

Black Roses

I don't know how I feel right now. I am happy but I am sad. I'm torn in all directions. Why do things have to be like this? So many paths to take. Do I take the new one && totally restart? Do I take the one that is broken? Or do I go for the path that I've already taken hoping that it will take me somewhere new? Will I be accepted on any of the paths? Who knows?

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Can I ask you a question please
Promise you won't laugh at me
Honestly I'm standing here
Afraid I'll be betrayed.
As twisted as it seems, I only fear love when it's in my dreams
So let the morning light come in and let the darkness fade away
Chorus:
Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?

Drowning in my loneliness
How long must I hold my breath
So much emptiness inside I could fill the deepest sea
I reach to the sky as the moon looks on
One last year has come and gonne
It's time to let your love rain down on me

Can you turn my black roses red? (x3)
Cuz
I'm feelin like I'll blame it on love (x6)

Can you turn my black roses red? (x3)
Cuz I'm feelin like I'll blame in on love
I'm feeling like I'll blame it on love (until fades)

Barely Holding On

I can't breathe.
I can't take in air.
I can't stop thinking.
I can't get any space.
I can't stop thinking about anything.
I can't stop worrying about everything.
I can't stop caring.
I can't stop loving him.


I can't hold on.
I can't let go.
I can't be near him.
I can't be away from him.
I can't cry in front of him.
I can't not have his shoulder to cry on.


All I'm doing is hurting myself.


One day, I hope to wake up next to the guy who I make feel as special as he does me.
One day, I hope to hold hands with the guy whose fingers just fit.
One day, I hope to be held by the guy who doesn't want to let go.
One day, I hope that when I tell the guy I love him, he says it back and means it.
One day, I hope to find myself with the guy who won't give up on me.
One day, I hope to find the guy who talks with me without saying a word.
One day, I hope I find the most imperfect man for me.


I have to be guided.
I have to be waited for patiently.
I have to be loved.
I have to be cared for.
I have to be talked to.
I have to be listened to.
I have to know you're here and won't leave.

I don't want to live without my friends.
I don't want to live a lie.
I don't want to live without family.
I don't want to be lonely.
I don't want to hurt.
I don't want to get hurt.
I don't want to not be cared for.
I don't want to not be loved.

I will always have my education.
I will always have memories.
I will always have the people who have helped me.
I will always have that one night that was ours.
I will always have you in my heart.
Never forget that.